I've given it up ....

Well Hey everyone!!
As some of ya'll know the past few weeks have been especially rough for me. I guess thats what happens when you think and worry about stuff too much!!! lol. You get to wondering "Why me God? Why is this happening? Why couldnt I be normal like everyone else? Why, why why??"
You end up feeling jealous of the people around you who seem to have "relitavely problem free lives" and wonder why life is soooo unfair. Yup .... of course their problems seem big to them but compared to mine, most of them seem pretty small. Soooo by then you are feeling slighted and hurt, worried and completely miserable!! Pretty pathetic huh??? Yup I agree.
Finally last night, I just sat down and gave it all up. Worrying and getting sick over my problems really isnt gonna change anything!! I mean honestly, its natural to be worried about something like this ... but I cant let it take over my life and make my future seem hopeless.
I dont have a clue what the future holds, or what will happen to me .. but somewhere I really need to start trusting God. Please pray for meee!! I can use all prayers you all wanna pray lol. Also can u please pray that'd we'd get our own house soon. I really want to take long showers, run around looking like a scarecrow and make a mess w/out feeling bad lol!!!
Love ya'll, thanks for all the support you've given my fam :)

A month old TODAY!!!

My Little Baby's already a month old!! Wow times flies by so fast!!

It seems like yesterday when Samantha and I were playing house

and dressing up lol!! Dragging dolls around by their hair, and feeding

them dirt!! :) Haha, and yes - i actually did that! lol

Goodnight I can't believe that she's married

and a Mommy!!!!

Bre suckin away, man I love that kid!!

Isn't she a doll???

Looking up at Grandma ...!

She's growing up sooo fast!

Haha, I love this pic!

There's my sweet cuddle bug!


Bre has so much personality already!!!

I just cant describe how beautiful she is!!

Already married for a year!!!

Sam and Rick have been married for more then a year now!!! Can you believe that??? I can't! Honestly I was thinkin back to the wedding, and tearing up. Sniff, sniff! why do people have to leave me all the time?!

Well anyways ... I'm really happy for them. With Bre being born and all. I love you guys! You are the most awesome people around. Rick is the best bro-in-law anyone could ask for, and Sam and I go way back lol! So many memories with growing up together. Even if she never did forgive me for trying to poke her eye out with that rake!! lol!!

I hope that they're lives just keep on getting better. Here are some pics from their wedding, March 15th, 2008.

They're so cute together!! :)

Aww, I miss her sooo much!!

The beautiful bride!!

I look sooo young here, (at least I think so lol!)

Mr. and Mrs. McCarthy!!!

And so .. they fell in love lol!

I am convinced that my kitty Peach and

Mrs. Hance's cat Buddy, are in love lol!

They seriously sit there and stare at each other all day long!

It's hilarious!! :)

Haha buddy star gazing :D

Peach! She's such a pretty cat!

And here's my random sis Beth - I love her lol!

Here I yam , after church on Sunday - experimenting w/ my new camera!

hmm, opinions ...?

Ok, i've been inspired (by a certian friend of mine uhhmm!) to post some writing on my blog ... this is the beginning of my assignment for the writing course im doin! nooowww - nobody laugh!!! :) I know im not a great writer like arianna, or a someone who can make you crack up ... but!!! Im trying lol! Love ya all. And tell me what you think! Be good now :)

"Are you crazy!”
Courtney turned to face her friend, and mentally prepared herself for the tirade that was sure to follow. “What’s wrong Rach?”
“You’re going to waltz off to Africa, and still have the guts to ask me what’s wrong?” She flung her car keys on the table, and pulled her sun glasses off. “Court, do you realize how much pain you are putting everyone through?”
“This is what I have always wanted to do Rachel!“ Courtney ran a shaky hand through her ash blonde hair, and tucked a strand behind one ear. “You know that I’ve always wanted to be a missionary.”
“Yeah, but not by yourself!” Rachel grabbed Courtney’s arm and propelled her towards the couch. “What are you thinking? Going on a whim again, trying to get yourself killed?”
“Ha, very funny!” Courtney playfully punched her friend on the arm, “Come on Rachel! You need to settle down, everything’s gonna be fine.”
“Right.” Rachel shifted on the couch, and pulled on the sleeve of her striped shirt. “That’s easy for you to say. I’m the one who has to sit here and wait for you come home.” '

To be continued ..... lol :)

Awesome necklace giveaway!!

I'm letting you all know that Arianna is having a necklace giveaway for her celebration of a 100 posts!!! yay ena! haha i'm not even close to that yet :)
These necklaces are pretty awesome so check em out! Maybe i'll get one lol! although with my luck - not a chance lol!! so anyways ... check it out!!
http://arianna-elizabeth.blogspot.com/

My niece BRE!!!!

Here she is!!!!


All the details .. loooong baby! :)


She's such a doll ...


My parents say that she looks like Rick ... hmm
I'm not sure!! What'd you think???

Lots of dark brown hair ... :)

Proud Parents!!!!

Grandma 7 times over!! :) :)

Rick's mom ... 1st Grandbaby :)

And here's me and bre ... i'm soo glad she's finally here!!